First day off of methadone

So my last dose of methadone was on July 31st, and what a roller coaster of emotions it has been! The first couple of weeks were rough for sleeping, I couldn’t believe that I was able to function on 3 hours of sleep for as long as I did! But gradually my sleep came back to normal, and that was a huge win. I was expecting loss of appetite like when I quit heroin cold turkey, but that never happened. But nonetheless, Imodium was my best friend. In the past couple of weeks a lot of bad shit...

Heroin addict for almost a decade, on methadone for over 8 years. Highest dose was 56mg. Tried to taper 3 times (could stop using) and went back up to 30mg. Been tapering for over a year, the last 6mg I dropped 2mg a week (not ideal) and left at 2mg

I am seriously surprised by how far I’ve come within less than a month of leaving the clinic. Sleeping has been pretty much back to normal. I used clonodine more often than 1x a day in the beginning, but now I haven’t really taken it anymore. Chills come and go, and a lot of times I feel colder than what it really is, but I never really got the sweats. I chose to finish my taper during summer time for this exact reason, to not feel extremely cold when winter hits Massachusetts. I have...

Today is my 4th day being methadone free, and the first night I slept over 4 hours. I got 7 hours of sleep, and woke up totally rested and without any anxiety. I did take 1/4 of Subutex last night, not sure that is the cause of feeling almost normal today (except for tinnitus and diarrhea). I only have this one pill of Subutex, so no risk of getting caught on another addiction. Day 2 was rough though. Anxiety beat me to a pulp. Restlessness, chills, headache, backache, nauseous, diarrhea… I...