New/Old Chapter?

Same work, same stress, same drinking problem, but I have thus far managed to abstain from meth, opiates, benzos, and lyrica.

I've been prescribed 5mg dexamphetamine for ADHD (two in the 'morning' and two in the afternoon).

It really helped at the start, but when I got back into kitchen work, my drinking and pill use skyrocketed and I can't seem to level off the booze (dexamph detox is easy, just eat and sleep for a few days).

Problem is... I stack up several days in a row drinking, smoking and popping/snorting pills, and need several oversize meals to replenish and at least a day to rest and recover.

Its not a gig I can do sober or stay sober in. We often do between 4000 and 20,000 in sales in a 4-6 hour span (later lunch through close). Come home too amped up to sleep and rarely want to eat, unless I'm more blazed than snoop dogg at the cannabis cup.

And then there's all the pretty girls, the two bars, the shift beers (always go for at least 2, and I can kinda get away with it because I hammer out the mains section- around 4000-8000 of food sales goes through my station on a busy night).

I'm studying an ICT cert 3 and doing my best, but I keep getting called in for fucking extra shifts, because... NOBODY WANTS TO DO CHEF WORK ANYMORE, CAUSE IT SUCKS ASS.

Goddamn it, I wish I had made the most of my first (and second) attempt at university. TAFE will have to do for now.

Go to school and get a real job, kids. You're not gonna be a celebrity chef, its entirely more plausible that you'll wind up a burnt out, semi-recovered drug addict and raging alcoholic.

Maybe you'll get a book deal, but we all saw where that got Anthony Bourdain... (RIP).

I'm just kind of resigned at the moment. I keep telling myself 'eight more months' but its actually more like 3 years (acquiring relevant qualifications for the specific branch of ICT and completing an internship).

Just gotta stop drinking and popping so many pills... Going to work for a busy shift after a 2 day bender is like walking into a coal mine with a string of firecrackers taped to your ass.

At least the food is good, at least on my end.
Feel so tired and burnt out though, I just want a better boost...

Just don't go back to twirling the pipe...
Just keep away from the glass dick...
Don't load the crystal pistol...