Sneaking Crack Hits As The World Ends

My hosting family member busted me again. I couldn't hide being high. I had a great session with 5g of crack and some porn, however, and I can't honestly say that I regret doing it. My family member really let me have it with both barrels, blasting my decision-making and my overall ways these past few years since I got hooked on cocaine. I packed my things and was ready to head to a hotel to continue getting high, but things calmed down because of the family arriving that night and because...

Ho, boy. Some more family visiting for a few days. I won't have any opportunity to get high. I'm not ultra craving it today, though I would still do it if I could. I need to prove I can control my urges. I'm trying to game out how much time I think I have left to live versus screwing things up with my family versus being able to fund any lapses. I'm not as anxious today about a nuclear holocaust, though I'm still tense. I guess with family on the way, I just have other stuff to think...

Due to a lifetime of bad decisions, I'm forced to stay with a relative. This relative has given me several chances after catching me using. If I get caught one more time, I'm definitely out of here. But I was so overwhelmed by the recent nuclear news that I broke down and bought more crack recently anyway. I used in my room in the house again, but was able to keep it concealed. I got really lucky this time, and I know I shouldn't tempt fate again. But I am not kidding when I say that I...