Tapering off methadone

I finally made an appointment with a psychiatrist yesterday and was grateful I told him every damn thing about me, including my past opiate use, and that I’m tapering off methadone, that I’m employed in a low wage job looking for good permanent work, that I’m still fighting the employer who laid me off, now with the state backing up my claim, and that my husband’s business is failing and that my husband is constantly angry about everything. To the psychiatrist it was clear I was struggling....

I posted my last entry a little prematurely and can’t edit it now. I wanted to write more about my conflicting feelings about Xanax, or alprazolam as it’s called by the generic name. I’ve never been into getting high on benzodiazepines. I don’t think I ever have, except when I was taking every drug given to me in my early 20s. I didn’t even know what it was. A neighbor gave me his entire prescription because he didn’t like it. I used to take it and drink a lot. That’s all I remember. I...

When I started having problems with my new supervisor at a company I’d been with for 12 years, my anxiety levels went through the roof and they’ve remained unnervingly high and disruptive to my life ever since. It doesn’t help that I was laid off, looking for a job, still tapering off methadone and now having to pay the full price of the treatment because health insurance was too expensive. Things have balanced out a bit. I have a job that’s OK. It doesn’t pay well but I’m doing something...