I had bought a $400 bag and when I tried it, I left without it. It was so gross and it took a very long time to get to me, so I said f this and went to my other person… that right there makes sober me proud proud enough to tell my friends that know. bbbbbuuuutttt the crack head in me cringes. so badly. $400 is a lot of shit and it sucks that i waited so long for nasty crack. i could have hit up another person but because i was with some guy that is super insecure i didnt. also why do some crack heads still smoke bad crack ? and say its good too? i’m new at this, 3 months in. i smoke by myself now but only because people started stealing from me and giving me bad shit or putting bad shit in my bags and I really wish people didn’t suck because I had a good time hanging out with people while using but using alone makes me wanna stop really bad so that’s my goal and if I got fake shit every single time I definitely would but yeah I’m really upset that I spent that much money and didn’t even get anything out of it and didn’t even carry till like honestly now because running out of stuff and I don’t wanna spend a lot of money again because I’m gonna have to pay my mortgage soon. anyways I just wanted to write that down see if anyone could relate to being extra stupid on the substance and have a battle with your sober sauce the whole time I find that with a lot I also realize a lot of things when I smoke from the past or the present which also sucks I wish I was stupid and didn’t notice anything because then it would just be a good time also why is crackhead me so much stronger than the sober me when it comes to things?
i’m tripping on shrooms and smoking weeed. took me mad long to be able to do this but i did have a lot of crack res left and hit my plug up, i feel like im gonna fuck this up!!! i’m going to try super hard to only buy no more than a ball even tho that’s a lot and won’t last me long. i’m a crack head i gotta stop this shit Now
I’ve stopped the crack for 20 years , I was smoking with no downers , not very clever but was trying to be more organic back then . I just enjoy normal Charly powder now once or twice a week , it’s generally lovely & interesting , it’s not against the flow . The crack is an evil substance & I will continue to warm my fellow addicts that the evil follows you around when you are in its grip . The amount of Mental Health Issues I had whilst smoking were unreal , I get almost none of that & a real sense of freedom now ! Peace out , best vibes to all X
Hey Simon, hope your doing well.. Really have seen a lot of similarities in your comments in regards to my ongoing struggle with crack. I spent 15 plus years addicted to heroin and i was lucky to have a decent job and i managed to maintain my habit with a few times not being able to score , But being honest, i never found it expensive to maintain my addiction and i can't say that i really experienced much in negative health issues. My use did escalate from smoking a few bags a day to iv'ing a gram in one hit every morning and two half gram hits later in the day. But again it was costing me roughly 25% of my wages at the end level of use and once i got into treatment and prescribed meth i found the transition quite easy...(except for the time i lost my script and got booted from treatment while being on 100mg/ml daily with no rapid detox, but thats another story and withdrawal id rather forget lol) Having said all that about heroin, i will tell you that imo, crack is a whole different animal and is an awful drug. Im still struggling to stop now tho ive made progress with not spending every penny i have and going without essentials and struggling to pay to keeo the electricity and gas on. One example of change lately is insteaf of my electricity and gas constantly running on emergency credit, i actually have £244 credit on my gas meter and 53 on my electricity.. Small win i suppose lol.. Anyway hope your ok and doing well
Bro. (Or ma'am, as the case may be). Bad shit is part of the game. If you play the slot machine, you take your chances. It's part and parcel of the lifestyle... sometimes you get the bear, sometimes the bear gets you. You say you don't want to be around others when smoking. I get it, I got to that place myself. However, that's relatively far along in the addiction cycle, so you've 'come a long way' already... in the bad sense of the phrase. Putting the shit down is hard. Lord knows it took me a very long time and a lot of tries. But I can tell you, from personal experience, my mind is so much more effective. My soul is so much lighter. My money grows so much faster. At a very ripe age, I'm finally able to consider buying land (a lot) and a residence (modest) of my own. I still hear it calling me, but I don't grant it permission to rule me any more. If you insist on staying in the game, recognize that bad deals and ripoffs are the rule, not the exception, unless you find a plug (dealer) you can trust. However, I suggest you bail before you go that route. I wish you the best, and hope you get out of the lifestyle before it wastes a few decades of your life. God bless and keep you.
Cheers Gazzuk , yes not bad at all ta mate , totally in agreement RE the revolting crack , it’s full of sardonic tricks & negativity & if taken alone a giant mindfuck . There’s never any sense of being satiated , it’s a constant looking for more & more outwardly thus ignoring internal peace or the harmony that Psychedelics for example take you to. It’s dangerous masochism especially when the mental crap like voices & the ilk kidnapp ones free will . Stay well pal X
Hey sorry for the late reply but i had a shit few years already and ended up with a pulmonary embolism nearly 2 weeks ago and its been tough to try maintain a habit and trying get through work when i should be resting and recovering. But im still struggling with it, hate buying it hate the feeling and regret it every day but i still go and pick up on the way home every day. Heroin was so much easier to stop using.. Anyway happy Easter and hope your doing well
Sorry for the late reply but been rough after randomly getting a pulmonary embolism, now that you mentioned psychedelics ...i absolutely loved acid when I did take it its been a long 17 year or so since i last used it, except for a let down at a reunion party last year. Bought the fruit pastel ones and it did something but not at all like acid. How is everything .hopefully u are doing well
