No sob stories here please

I don't mean to be unkind but I read some of the new member posts and they made me feel worse than before I started! I know people are here for support but jeez cry me a river!
I joined after coming to the site for education and help over the years and find the practical advice in here really good especially to do with harm reduction.
Well I have been a tit and only gone and bloody missed when shooting up tonight haven't I! Doh! I have super thin annoying girl veins but have gotten pretty good at not missing lately after numerous misses and an abcese. Sorry I'm dyslexic and I'm pretty sure absece is not spelt like that. Oh OK absece it seems to like that spelling! Ouch ouch ouch it hurts and I could have sworn it was in when I shot. Oh well just going to look after it. Last time I did this and it started to look infected I squeezed the puss out, ran it under water, applied a plaster to draw out any infection and repeated for a few days. It worked very well. No need for medical intervention. Time before missed in my hand when in a hurry as needed to shoot at a family dinner to avoid withdrawal. Ended up infected and on antibiotics and time before full on absece, hospital admission and operation. Not much fun when juggling a full time heroin addiction.
What I learned from all my mistermeaners is if in doubt don't shoot. Try try again. Only attempt to shoot up when your warm and your veins have come out to play. Use fresh pins every time. Don't judge others. I've read some bloody horrible judgemental shiz on this site having a 'dig' mind the pun, at those unfortunate enough to miss 'you shouldn't be injecting if you don't know how' blah blah! Keep your jumped up unhelpful opinions to yourself. Advice and help only pleeeeeeease. Ta.
I'm currently trying to get clean. No need for the tiny violins. I wanted to keep my writings light hearted for other readers as I sure as hell need to smile right now and I'm sure others feel the same. Not here to air my dirty laundry which consists of my sweaty onesie I've spent 2 days rattling in! Nice! So on day 2 I caved and belled my dealer for a half G. In the last week I've managed 12 hours then 16 hours then 36 hours! 36 was impressive I think. Though I'm pretty down about caving but hey ho as I said no sobs. Please wish me luck for my next attempt! I'm going for it. If I can do 48 hours I think I'm almost there. Yes let's aim for 48 hours. I have a few subatex to help me so let's do this! !!
Thanks for reading ☺